May death do us apart!

Infinite aversion, journey but no destination
None to blame, have nothing to claim

Bliss and contentment, a theory, a myth
In pain, impending calmness reigns and destroys the dreams

Reaching out to hear something, anything
All I can sense is unfriendly whispers

When living is killing and efforts are dyeing
When life deserts you and tramps the last gleam of hope.....

 Paying my debts to misery and loss
None to blame, have nothing to claim


  One and half year of terrible and unpleasant experiences and hard blows, one after one consuming me, damaging me and making me hate my purpose of existence. What else could I have asked for? Thanks god for never letting me down and showering flowers of misery on me. I wonder what have I done in all of my previous births and the present one to receive your never ending love and warmth!  Thanks again!

I have started to loose faith in every aspect of ME, loosing faith in people, bonding day after day to my doomed fate.

Well nothing more to say for today! Have a great day! Keep smiling :) Where there is loss, nature balances by bringing in more loss in other directions. God apparently did his physics homework!

Keep waiting for my next post or not or whatever!

Destination of dreams...

Mood: Mystical
Color of the moment: Black and white
Time: 5:04 pm
Weather: Cloudy with intermittent drizzles


"My wandering thoughts"

Guntur, Gatorade and Trey's "Bottoms up", in the end it doesn't even matter
P.S. I love you, Somerhalder and I-HOP, and I hear my heart flutter
It seems I am rambling all the time, because my mind cannot make up its mind!
If I like all that you like, what is it that I really like?
If I trace your footsteps wherever you go, I am not following, I am falling for you, Am I?

As I close my eyes, my imagination syncs with my fascination
As I dance to the tune of life, my desire embraces extinction
Trapped in the maze of duties, engulfed by the fumes of consciousness
Flapping my wings as I try to escape the debris of my shattered dreams
Bent to break, Down to dust, knelt to fate & making out with a catastrophe.


" Bekar bakwaz" (not really :P)

I wonder if there is another single soul on this planet who is exactly like me, there isn't an ounce of chance that it is happening. I met this very interesting person the other day and I could not tell him that, It is a pleasure meeting him.

"Free advice" ( bilkul muft :P)

1) Never get attached
2) Never expect "ANYTHING"
3) Never get attached
4) Never share a secret, believe me you would regret sooner or later!
5) Never get attached
6) Never be something you are not from inside for "ANYTHING" or "ANYBODY"! ( well if you have a split personality like me then "GOD SAVE YOU")
7) Never get attached

 I am tempted to mention abruptly that " Given we breed and bear Sentiments within us, sentiments are mother fuckers"
P.S: Extending the analogy, we can never desert our offspring!!

Well readers, Bye for now!

Be safe and healthy, Helping never hurts ( If you don't expect in return)

On that note...Rock on! : D

The Original Sin

ఆశ పడటం నేరం కాదు, కాని ఆశల వారధి పైన జీవిత పయనం వీలు కాదు

శోకము సహజం, కాని శోకమే లోకమై, చీకటికి పరిమితమైతే బ్రతుకు నరకం

కోరికలకు బానిసై , కరిగిన కలలకు సాక్షై, బాధకు బంధువై మిగిలిపోయవా ?

కాలం ఇచ్చే సమాధానం కొరకు వేచి చూస్తున్నావా?

ఎవరితో పోరాటం తెలియదు, దేనికై ఆరాటం తెలియదు!

P.S: నేను కవిని కాదన్న వాడిని కత్తి తో పొడుస్తా, నేను రచయత్రి కాదన్న వాడిని రాఎత్హి  కొడతా!
P.P.S: Sorry, My violent streak just came out :P

As I leisurely get up on a Tuesday afternoon and prepare myself a bowl of regular honey bunches with "Almonds", simultaneously indulging in   "How I met your mother! watching marathon" which was on for a week now. And and and...Wait for it... I could feel the ground below me shaking and walls making a resonating bang presented the illusion that walls were moving real fast towards me. I confess, I did enjoy it for it was my first ever earthquake experience. After a minute, I left the room with my cereal bowl, towards the balcony to see whether it was one of my day dreams or it really happened. So, I could see the frightened people from the apartment gathered outside and a little later everything returned to normalcy.

If anyone is wondering what does my tempting title has to do with what I wrote so far....well I just realized, I am a "pretty not bad improviser". Well as I listen to random, groovy, Bollywood tracks, I realized that I quit dancing lessons every time I signed up for one. So, for my sweet love for dance, I hereby declare that I will learn Salsa this fall <ASAP>!

More for later!
Good bye readers! Take care!

Wherever I go, You follow me...

ज़रा सा झूम लूँ मैं ,

क्यूँ कि बादल को चुने को जी करता है

ज़रा सा पी लूँ मैं,

सारे ग़मों को भूलने का मन करता है

यूं तो हस लेती हूँ,

पर आँखों से हसने कि चाहत है, जिसे बस वो कोई एक पहचानता है

डरर लगता है कि बात कई गलत न निकल जाए ,

खफा हो जाये वोह तो दिल कि हालत कहिं बिगड़ न जाए

ए खुदा ऐसी भी चीज़ न बना,

की मेरा ईमान यूँ फिसल न जाए !

I am not a poetess, but there is a poetess in me somewhere, waiting desperately to sing her song and live her life through what she writes.

Okay, big deal, this is just another blog, So what, blah blah...I asked myself several times before I embarked on this roller coaster ride of expressing my burst of emotional rush & mood swings and the result is this blog ** probably at the cost of pissing certain people or not or yeah whatever**

I have been putting of blogging for an year and finally I feel like writing again. Well, simply for a fact that I can write what I can not imagine saying to anybody, I love blogging. I can write crap and still feel that it is the most intelligent thing that ever struck me.  I can write fiction or fact and readers keep guessing! and so on.

I guess, enough for today! Whoever is reading this, posting a comment would'nt hurt, I do not mind being admired  or criticized ( Truth Time: Mostly, I enjoy being praised :P)

I Pray for world peace and never ending natural resources and honest politicians for future generations.
Take care everybody!